Something will be done

So the stone-destructing date is set - Dec 13th.
I emailed with the urologist Dr Monga (who is very nice) and he agreed that Dr Shen or Dr Remzi could be at the surgery to look after the k-pouch since this is his first time blasting bowel stones.  He's done stones in the gallbladder, kidney and bladder and I'm very confident in his skills, its just I know the valve of the k-pouch is kinda fragile (for lack of a better word) and I don't know how much manipulation it can take.  I feel better that my Docs who really know k-pouches will be there to look out for me!
So, I'm nervous, or perhaps anxious is a better word.  Not as bad as I was before, because now I do believe this really is the best option for me, and I know I'm in the best hands.
Surgery is always scary when general anesthesia is concerned, and I've had enough of it to know that things don't always go as planned.  Sometimes as I lie awake at night trying to sleep a lot of memories come back, and as I start to imagine what will happen next I can smell the OR, and feel the cold room and see the machines and tiny table.  I remember what its like to scoot onto it and have electrodes hooked up and lay there wondering how far my heart rate will go up before they sedate me.  Its not always fear of the unknown that is the worst.
My mom is coming up to spend time with me and look after me 'just because'.  I've had health problems since I was a kid so we have this hospital bond you see.  I'm glad she's coming,
But right now, I need to focus on school, finals are right around the corner.